This is likely my favourite picture on my hutch top. This would have been taken maybe the day after Alia and I came home from the hospital. I had to spend a week recoperating due to some stupidity of my own, so we weren't allowed to leave the hospital as usual. This picture was taken on July 12, 1984. Making me 24 years and almost 2 months old. Jenn would have been 26 months and 4 days old. Alia - 8 days old. She was a very healthy girl, as you can see. I have no idea why I dressed her in that heavy winter sleeper! She must have been sweating a river in there. The reason why I wanted to share this picture with everyone is that I remember this day. I actually remember Hans taking this picture. At that moment, I remember feeling true joy in my whole being. That feeling of completeness. Being whole. Being in the right place, and the place being the best place for me, for my family. I also remember feeling that anything was possible. Ice Possible. Just knowing that, stretching ahead was a whole life time of experience waiting. Life is good. Still. Luckly for me, I have had many moments of clarity like that in my life. Of certainty in my space. Of course, I have had times of instability as well, doubting my own thoughts, many times I doubted my decisions. Something I have vowed to work on, learning to accept the joy that comes with making a decision that is good, even if it makes others lives a little more uncertain. But I would have to say that the moments of pure joy have far out weighed the rocky feelings.
Life is good. There is great joy in accepting this. Believe me.
5 comments:
aww.. mary!! that is so sweet, and i LOVE that picture... your girls are so lucky to have a mother like you.
love christine.
And Baby and Brooke are so lucky to have a mother like you. I can tell, you are in the club.
love, love, love
Mary :
Its been a while, but somthing told me to come on and check your blog. Youve have been crossing my mind often and Im trying to take a hint from the universe that is someone keeps popping up you should so somthing about it .
I love this post , you really are a great mom to your girls , and even to the girls that you didnt cary for 9 months.
You are not perfect , few of us are. But on the mom scale you are of the charts. I admire your balance when it comes to taking care of your family and yourself. It seems like you take care of you too , which often times mom's forget to do . I think this makes you healthy and a positive influence.
Moving on Friday . Ill let you know how it goes. I have my first spa on sunday . Will post a blogalog about it . Love ya see you soon . On one of these Sundays.
PS :
JULY 12 two years later in 1986
Out came your other adopted daughter that you wouldnt meet for 18 more years!
That me by the way :) Im 21 this year wow! Maybe might even have a real first Birthday party :)
Well written article.
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